I had a very disturbing dream last night. I dreamt that I went into an Asian restaurant and they served me a plate of sample sushi all made out of mice/rats and very creatively rolled. I ate one! And after it was already in my mouth or I had swallowed it, I realized what it was made out of it. So gross.
When dreaming about food, it's good to ask...
Are we in need of nourishment, either spiritually or emotionally? What are we doing in life to feed our soul, or to feed our imagination? How are we ensuring we have enough energy to get through a difficult time? How in touch with our body and feelings are we?
I think right now I need to feed my imagination. That's why the sushi rolls were so creative and resourceful. Every roll looked different like art. I also need to ensure I have enough energy getting through the very difficult time still transitioning into be a new CC. I need to stay in touch with my body and feelings. Recently my arthritis has been so bad. Being in air conditioning all the time and only canvassing 2-3 days per week in the sun is putting me in a lot of pain.
Orientation days are so draining. We are doing them 3 weeks per month and retention recently has been rough. I wanted to do a social yesterday night and it totally slipped my mind. We have so few people in our office right now and we are trying to staff people on door but don't have enough drivers this week. We are losing all of our TLs. Shit is getting real challenging. We never hit a sustained big FTE this Summer. I think the CCs and RD are all disappointed about it.
Alyse your name rhymes with world peace You have been holding the world on your shoulders since you learned how to read early at age 4. Give yourself a break Because even the world's rivers have breaks They're called deltas
Alyse your name rhymes with niece You have 3 of them. They're their own people Calm your shit. Read to them you have. Girls gotta be shown it's a ball to break to be a girl but fuck it is a ball so have it
Alyse your name rhymes with quiche Feed yourself everything you love You're #1 at nurturing you Pull up a chair Let yourself soak in nourishment In all the moments When you don't want to admit You're hungry
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I am way more pragmatic than society lets on females ever are. Practicality paired with some optimism are in every choice I make. Sometimes I wish things were more fair so I live in a world where they are, then life reminds me our ideas of justice have so much more room for development as a society. Ultimately I adore science and the diversity implicit in the universe. I strive for more understandings and equality because it is most reasonable to do so if one is to truly appreciate all the potential the human species has. I want to see our species thrive and we cannot do so without logic, diversity and justice. I am a pragmatic optimist. I want the whole world to fall in love with books and for white supremacy to be eradicated. I'm happy to be a drop in this ocean of humanity.
Higher powers Grant me the Serenity to Accept the things I cannot change Courage to change the things I Can and the Wisdom to know the Difference
Oh jeeze. I will be seeing a lot of people I haven't seen in a long time in the beginning of May.
Closing and opening we don't have wounds anymore we have curtains. There is a way in between yours and mine Not everything is owned by a person.
So, what if I write you in my novel? What if your heart pumps out words for me to mold and sing to you? Change isn't written by us.
But the amount of love I have for you is enough no matter how you feel to circulate through me for years and keep my hands moving over this page with this line with the stories wanting to be written. My eyes soften and my body falls into sleep without you because I am heavy and tired.
The color framing center of my iris will keep on showing, the strum of my hands over the keys will continue. Reciprocity aside I have a whole heart inside producing all the sounds my lungs need to hear thump thump thump consistent whole full between the ins and outs of my breath. We don't have wounds anymore, we have curtains.